Have you ever found yourself walking out of your house into your garage and not sure which BMW to drive, or opened up your wine cellar and bummed you have to open a Silver Oak because you have to make room for your next shipment, or that third night at the all-inclusive resort and having to decide between steak or lobster and feeling a bit of anxiety about that situation? I have never had any of those feelings, but I am feeling a little too bored and wondering if I have just too much time off. How jerky does that sound? :)
After 5 weeks I have accomplished all I wanted to accomplish in terms of my professional development. It was like training camp for my job and I loved it! But with my tasks being over, I have found myself spinning out. I mean there is only so many Burt Reynolds films one man can watch.
But, have no fear, just when my survivor's guilt was reaching its peak, I was able to spend some time on the golf course with a dear friend. This man has just retired, had his hip replaced, and brought his old guy wisdom to bear.
After spending the morning walking the course, slicing tee shots, overshooting my chips, and 3 putting for days, I found myself in different head space. Life, work, ministry, golf cannot be about the accomplishing of tasks. It is the manner in which you achieve them.
I know for all of you humans this is self-evident. Life is about the journey and not the destination. But for me, that fortune cookie was written by slackers in group projects. I love to work, and I love to get things done. And in fact, I think that is the way in which God has made me. So, instead of fighting that, I simply need to recalibrate. I can still get things done, and I still need to get things done, but there is a way to accomplish all that God has put in front of me that is still human and cares for others.
My round on the golf course taught me just that. It was an easy lesson since I am a horrible golfer, but the experience is transferable. The intentional conversation, the natural silence, and the slow and steady work across the course accomplished way more than I could have imagined. I got to recalibrate, be thankful for the incredible people in my life, and dream about what God might have for me in this next season of sabbatical.
With nothing left to accomplish, I look forward to sitting heavy and enjoying the wide range of things on the docket this upcoming week. I am heading down to Los Angeles to visit Hillsong Church and see what all the hype is about and visit an old youth group kid who is about to launch his second documentary next week at the Napa Film Festival and get some time with my dear cousin and her kids. Then off to New York for a really special trip with my daughter.
There is nothing to accomplish, no goal to meet, just people to enjoy. I look forward to taming my robotic self and enjoy the precious people in my life. I will be praying for my family, for my church, and if you would like for you too. Just text me and I’ll you to my prayer list. And with that, we will see what God has in store for me this upcoming week!